Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 15, 2010, at 19:59:51
will someone help me reconnect with my brother..?
Right now, i've been kinda locked in my own prison in my room, and I have no validy to show myself somewhere because I'm just ashamed that I can't keep a job because I can't "concentrate" and stay on task. right now I'm going through a process on getting on focus medication because that helps social skills, i've abused stimulants in the past, and my family knows it.
I just want to reconnect but I just know that i'm not wanted but it hurt's me. It's kinda of like the same with "selective" friends, you know there's people that "select" people because there's some kind of connection. I think that's what's going on with me and my brother it's a "selective" thing because words say "we like you, rj" but in the heart...i'm not liked, maybe because of descious i've made.
I wished I could just go back and be enjoyed, but the thing...I just don't know what to say to my own family, like start a conversation. And right now I'm in the process of getting put on focus medication, even though i've had history of abuse with it, I'm going to take it correctly, i've grown out of that irresponsible person who just want's things "immidatly".
Anyone?
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poster:rjlockhart04-08
thread:933841
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