Posted by SLS on May 2, 2009, at 7:36:40
In reply to Re: community helps when grieving-no one is alone » zenhussy, posted by Kath on May 1, 2009, at 22:17:16
> I always hesitate to put names in the subject line like that, knowing that I'm going to leave out someone & they might be hurting badly (as I know so many of us are grieving for various reasons).
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> Grief is SO hard.
I am not grieving right now. I am not sure why. It might not be healthy. Perhaps something is laying dormant inside my mind. I did grieve just before my grandmother's impending death and at the funeral, but I seem to have accepted things as they are. I did lots of crying for a few days. Still, I expected more. I can look at pictures of her and not feel sad. I guess I have invested myself more in my wonderful memories of a wonderful woman than in her recent passing.I don't want to get into it too much now, but her death was made needlessly horrific by her attending doctors and nurses. This is what remains in my mind as sadness. I am also angry about the incompetent treatment she received and the suffering she experienced in her last waking moments, but that is part of a past that cannot be rectified by me. I wish I had that power.
- Scott
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