Posted by Polarbear206 on April 1, 2008, at 10:05:07
In reply to Anniversaries.....Permanent Broken Heart, posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on March 25, 2008, at 23:44:04
> Ugghhhterrible week. All of the past rears its head, sitting there for me to haunt my nightmares. It doesnt get any easier even with each passing year. I thought this year I could try and help it by drinking more, but I ended up sitting in front of the stereo on my knees, balling my eyes out. We where up at the cottage, and my sister suggested I, we, do something to commemorate, and so we had a little picnic with some candles and nice wine. It was overwhelmingnice, but cut deep. I spent the next two days in bed. Ive been using lots of clonazepam and Risperdal to try and drown the dysphoric hypo-mania. I am off to see the doctor tomorrow. My prolactin was a bit high last time, he said, so maybe I need some testosterone, or an anti-prolactin med.(My sex drive is still in the negativesI mean completely gone!) Maybe I just need a new life, a new body. This one is running on empty. Jay
Jay,
Hope you are feeling better. I e-mailed a friend of yours and let him know your having a rough time. I hope he read it and got in touch with you.
PB
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