Posted by TexasChic on January 17, 2008, at 19:36:46
After last time, I figured anything I did would get me bitched out by my supervisor. So I just did as little as possible and sent an email to her telling her the time of my interview. Boy was that a mistake! She was so pissed!
I see now the way I should have played it. Its obvious what she wants is for me to feel indebted to her. By bypassing her it made her feel I was snubbing her authority. She told me when I get back Tuesday (I have some time off to compensate for the horrendous hours I've been working) we were going to have a meeting about the "proper way to go about applying for an internal job". She also said AGAIN, that they were going to call her and ask her what she thought about me, and she didn't know if she would feel comfortable recommending me for a job. I told her after last time I didn't think she wanted me to talk to her about it. She said, "That NEVER came out of my mouth!"
Of course, I eventually I started crying, and she told me she wasn't mad at me and I need to not take things so personally. I just sobbed. "I can't help it! Its just the way I am!" She kind of calmed down after that and said, "I know, we can't help who we are". Then after that she kind of changed her tone to how she could help me with this but not if I didn't tell her about it. So now our meeting Tuesday is about coaching me for my interview. What a fruitcake! I know I'm not perfect and there are probably a thousand ways I could have handled all this better, but still, she's being a LITTLE psycho. !@#$%
Okay, I'm better now. I just needed to vent about that. So hopefully things will go well at the interview, and if not, hopefully I can figure out how to mollify my supervisor. Because escaping isn't the answer, dealing with the present is what I've got to do. Not that an escape would be bad. Okay, so I'm giving myself a pep talk as I'm writing this. That's what I do here!