Posted by your#1fan on January 13, 2008, at 1:00:23 [reposted on January 13, 2008, at 1:09:41 | original URL]
Im going through the most roughest period of my life, there is so many things that are bothering me. Full time Job, Part time school (7 hours) and constantly having to do something at home. And other personal things that are bothering me....like how many friendships i messed up because manic phone calls, in that respect.
I need everyone here please be like my online family or something. I cant talk about this stuff with my family because they think im nuts, for real! i cannot tell this to many people because they think "whoa" w'll be prayin' for ya! ROFL! i just cant talk about these things with people in public you know? please understand me!
I still see life as if i dont have it down, i have to keep "how to do it" book of life. Because my brain is like back in 2005! I cant believe its 2008!!
I'll discuss things that are going on in my life, but im telling you, if there is anyone that can talk things through with me and show me how life works, i would be so happy! Im so confused, sometimes i have so much anxiety....like the other couple of days at the bookstore, i thought i was not "real" i was seeing stuff.
An Overreaction to stress i think is what it was. I "act" ALWAYS like i have it together, but listen you guys, everymorning i dont want to get out of the bed because i dont want to deal with reality, but i get up and i just go! i mess up, accidently on things, cant focus.
But im proud of myself because i've managed to do this with pains of rejection from others on facebook who think im a little wierd, because i dont know how to talk to people with out poaring out a little personal information. But i've improved on that part kinda.... But facebook is a "collage" clean, myspace. Basically. I have alot of friends but i dont even talk to them, i just watch and see whats everyone's doing.
Please be a warm good online communitie here. Please.
I've got to get my life in order and maybe some people here can help.
please be mine too