Posted by Dinah on December 30, 2006, at 11:33:23
Watching a rerun of the Wonder Years. I guess it's too early to tell if the changes will stick, but...
I realized I'm Margaret Farquar (sp?). The girl with three braids (because you never know when you'll need an extra rubber band) who loved bats and spiders.
Now mind you, I like Margaret. A lot. And I admire her courage and individuality, and her refusal to bow to the unkindness and expectations of others.
But this time I also saw Kevin and his reaction to her. Liking her and wanting to be friends with her but wondering why she had to make it so hard for him by being so weird. And that struck me in a way that hadn't before.
So... I made an appointment at a real salon to get my hair trimmed at least (since there's only so much you can do with straight thin hair) and the color touched up for the first time in well over a year. And... I'm trying not to wear my hair in braids. It's tough, and I'm backsliding at home when I am working, because it's so much easier to work with that inconvenient stuff out of the way.
But my hair has this seventies long straight blonde look going on right now, and my husband met me and fell in love with me that way, and likes it best that way. So I'm trying my best to leave it that way.
I'm not sure when summer comes if my resolve will waver.
If I lose some weight, I've promised myself some new, "normal" clothes.
I guess... I guess I don't want it to be hard for my husband and son to be with me.