Posted by Meri-Tuuli on November 8, 2006, at 13:52:18
In reply to Re: yes....., posted by Declan on November 8, 2006, at 13:18:05
hiya
> Better though to accept that it is your imagination in action and let it be a guide as to where your spirit want to go.
> You can learn stuff about yourself.Yeah, but I antagonise myself over choices I have had to make due to having no confidence, depression anxiety etc. Like Shell wanted to employ me (they met me at a milk round grad thing) and I passed the first two interviews and then when it came to the assesment centre, well I didn't go, I couldn't face it, and now I'm always wondering, 'what if...?' I know, I know, I'm not sure I want to work for a massive oil giant, but then again, I don't want to be broke either. And the real b*tch of it is that the geology I'm interested in, is precisely the geology you need for oil exploration etc..... What the hell am I supposed to do?
I get very frustrated that my depression/anxieties have had to hold me back from things that I'd overwise have done..... I guess there's lessons in there....why am I so scared, whats the worst that could happen....etc....oh well.
It don't mind plain old regrets, ('I regretted I drank so much last night'..blah) but regrets due to invisible forces within you holding you back.....man..... they frustrate the hell out of me.
Anyway most of my fantasies involve winning vast amounts of cash and not having to worry about my future :o)
Sigh.
Meri
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