Posted by James K on May 9, 2006, at 22:54:20
In reply to Re: Left Hand Corner, posted by verne on May 9, 2006, at 17:09:10
I had a hard time coming back here after being away for a while. I decided to come back because I think my real problem was the same problems I have here in the world, I have confrontations or say things I regret, and have embarrassment and want to hide rather than face up.
And it is hard to forget what I did yesterday or two or three days ago when I'm not drunk all the time. But the people here mean something to me, and I have to learn how to get along again. I want to be back at work, and my fuse had gotten too short. That's why I can live with the civility rules for instance (not every aspect, but the concept) I need to relearn those skills of thinking and then not taking the most immediate satisfying way out. I got used to people deferring to me or being careful around me, but then it went too far and got me fired.
I say all that to say this to you verne, if you get sober, you may want or enjoy the support here in addition to the local stuff you'll have going on. I intend to try and make the most of it. This place and these people were here for me at a low point, and I want to be here for others as I get stronger. Most memories are shorter or more forgiving than we drinkers'.
I'm not trying to start or join a "please stick around verne club", but I do enjoy your posts. so no offense.
James k
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