Posted by TexasChic on April 24, 2006, at 21:36:23
In reply to Re: hope you're doing better today?, posted by tizza on April 22, 2006, at 17:53:33
Things went fine today, pretty non-eventful. I wasn't upset anymore about feeling that everyone deserted me. Everything I read this weekend said that when being bullied in the workplace your co-workers will most likely not stand by you. Its either because they want to stay out of it, they don't want to be targeted themselves, or they just don't realize the extent of what's going on. It made me feel better to know it was kind of normal.
Although I was upset about feeling deserted, I've realized that what really upset me Friday was more about Cuteboy than anything else. I'm just one lovesick idiot!
We're going on layoff in 5 weeks and all I can think is how much it will suck to not see him for 3 months. I wish I could just find out once and for all that he has no interest in me so I can move on. As long as I have this tiny bit of hope I just can't let it go.
Allow me to gush for a minute - he's growing a goatee and the contrast between it and his boyish looks is so freaking cute I can't stand it! When he first started growing it I told him how much I like goatees and that it would look really good on him. He was all embarrassed saying, "Well at least it will take attention away from my face". I was like, "You have a cute face! I bet all the girls are after you!" He just got all embarrassed. I suddenly realized that I've been unconsiously giving the impression that I just think of him as a cute kid. I guess its just self preservation. I mean, you've got to do something when you get drunk and tell the guy you love him!
Anyway, forgive me for gushing. I didn't have anywhere else to do it and I needed to get it out of my system.
-T
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