Posted by James K on January 22, 2006, at 11:41:06
In reply to Re: How many people are not where, posted by Dinah on January 21, 2006, at 22:22:58
I want to be the me I used to be. If I could do it then, I should be able to do it now. I detest myself for not being who I used to be.
---In the short term, I'm sorry I'm not where I was 2 years ago. In the long term I never had a dream or an expectation that seemed reasonable. I assumed I'd die after highschool was over. A small few people realized I was special and took me on or took me in. They're the reason I have to try now. These not good days I've been having are no different than all the others along the way.
There is an idea, that a man can wake up refreshed, tackle a challenge with competence and confidence, work til he's tired, come home and enjoy his place and himself and his loved ones. That's the idea that is all I ever wanted and didn't even know was possible. I've come close sometimes.