Posted by Deneb on January 10, 2006, at 15:15:03
In reply to Good Luck w/your Pdoc, posted by Poet on January 9, 2006, at 18:49:14
> Hi Deneb,
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> Your pdoc needs to know what's been going through your head. It's okay to write things down and hand it to him/her. It's okay to print out your posts. You don't have to say where you posted them. That's not important. Your words and how you've been feeling are.
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> I hope things go smoothly. Please post an update.
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> PoetHi people
After my two classes for today I had two hours before my p-doc appointment. First I did some research on school related stuff, then I prepared for my appointment.
I wrote this long list of points to bring up.
I wrote about:
- my provocative and dramatic behaviour on the boards
- my threats of self-harm by OD and suggestions of suicide
- my actual mini ODs
- what JenStar and SarahT wrote
- how distressed I was because of some things written
- my occasional obsessions with the administrator
- my threats via e-mail to the administrator
- how I'm not depressed, but still get distressed
- how I turned the boards upside down
- how people tried to help
- how people got frustrated and upset
- how I flushed the ASA
- how I don't feel safe with myself sometimes
- how I can be distressed on moment and fine the next
- how people here said I was doing better on the RisperdalThere was a lot of stuff to read, so I talked very fast without stopping. I didn't want to waste his time. (This should be the last time I see p-doc2)
I also printed out and highlighted some posts and quotes from posts, showing him proof of what happened.
After all this my p-doc just wrote things. He just wrote and wrote and didn't say anything.
He interrupted me once while I was reading my list. He said he needed to get his glasses. He said he "wants to get a better look at me." Eeeeek! (This p-doc is kind of strange, he often talks to himself. Once he was filling in a deferral form for me and he said to himself, "Oops, I filled in the wrong slot" or something like that.) So, that means he was probably saying that to himself. What does he mean he "wants to get a better look at me?!" What was wrong with the way I looked? OMG, I hope I looked OK. I don't know what the heck he's looking for.
Anyways, he didn't tell me anything. He just wrote stuff and agreed that I should take the 0.75mg Risperdal again. He only said, "Your thoughts get confused sometimes." Other than that, he didn't say much at all.
Anyways, I started to whine about *why* I needed meds again, and I was too dense to notice that he was trying to kick me out of his office. ARGH, I'm such an idiot! I must have kept him an extra 5 minutes. I'm such an idiot!
Anyways, enough of this, I need to study.
Oh yeah, did I mention I was anxious as *HECK* when I went to see him?? Yeah, I must have seemed real unnatural.
Anyways, enough of this...
Deneb
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