Posted by Deneb on January 1, 2006, at 22:42:13
I love Dr. Bob. (not in a romantic way of course).
I'm going to get help and do really well in school so I can tell Dr. Bob at the Babble Party that I got straight A's.
I know he values academic success, (since he's been through so much schooling himself).
I wish I could be like Dr. Bob. (I don't want to be an M.D. though...too much interaction with people)
I wish I could be more successful than Dr. Bob. I wish I could be a biologist, maybe a plant biologist...and travel the world looking for medicinal plants.
I'm afraid I've messed up this life...which is why I keep thinking of offing myself. I need to start over.
I want to be a somebody...
I want to be special.
I want things to happen. I want exciting things to happen. I wish I weren't so afraid of everything.
The Babble Party will be exciting! I'm so looking forward to it. If we go to a bar or something, I'll try different drinks. I've only been to a bar once and I had one peach something or other. I heard somewhere that Dr. B likes to drink. ;-) I'll drink whatever Dr. Bob drinks. I hope I won't have a seizure by mixing meds and alcohol...
Is that T-shirt thing still going through? I want to buy one and have everyone sign it.
I'm going to try to be a grown-up on the trip. I'm going to have to navigate the city all by myself. I'm going to order my own food and everything.
I wonder if Dr. Bob reads my posts? He probably doesn't really. Maybe he reads them, but doesn't really "read" them if you know what I mean. He just checks them for civility.
I wonder if Dr. Bob knows who I am? I wonder if he knows that there's a poster named "Deneb".
I wonder why I tell you guys everything? Maybe I want someone in cyberspace to hear me. Ooooh, my thoughts are floating out there... :-)
I'm immortal.
I wonder what people will think if I die? I wonder if people here will be sad. Will Dr. Bob be sad?
I wonder if there will ever be someone else like me here?
I should get back in touch with my astronomy club. I haven't seen them in a year. I miss camping out.
Must get straight A's this semester. Must prove myself.
If I get A's, I'll be happy. I just know it. I'll get my confidence back.
Deneb
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