Posted by alexandra_k2 on December 13, 2005, at 23:45:40
In reply to I'm too embarrassed to be me *trigger*, posted by Deneb on December 13, 2005, at 23:38:11
> I have a really bad automatic thought, "I want to die, i need to die."
it's not a 'bad' thought...
i get those kinds of thoughts occuring to me too.
'stupid useless sack of sh*t' is one that recurrs
and
'everyone would so much prefer you to be dead'
and
'why don't you just die'
and
'die bitch'
and anyway... best not go there.
sometimes i feel really distressed by them.
yeah they are *my* thoughts
because they occur in *my* head
but that doesn't mean I *have* to believe them
that doesn't mean that I do believe them
it just means that those thoughts occur to me sometimes.in those times...
it can be hard...
but sometimes what we really need is some kindness and care.
i think that when i'm a bit fragile then those thoguhts tend to occur to me...
and when i'm a bit fragile then those thoguhts are more likely to upset me...
and i'm more likely to believe what they are saying...when i'm in a better place they don't affect me so much
and they probably don't occur to me as much in the first place.> I don't think I really mean it.
sure.
it is just that they occur to you at times.thoughts are different to beliefs.
okay?
poster:alexandra_k2
thread:588845
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20051203/msgs/588881.html