Posted by Shy_Girl on May 6, 2005, at 0:55:40
In reply to such a downer,sorry..but can i talk about suicide?, posted by alesta on May 6, 2005, at 0:20:47
You can always talk to me about suicide. It is not taboo for me. I think about it almost everyday. I don't pretend to know how you feel, needless to say, you must feel really really horrible right now. I wish your pain can be diffused around so all of us can help bear some of it.
It must be hard to be so depressed all the time. You don't want to burden people and feel you are pushing people away? You can't push me away. :-)
> talking about it could help prevent many suicides probably.
I agree.
> so, i'm discussing it. i feel hopeless..and i feel like the only person left that was nice to me treats me like sh*t, too. like i never even knew them.
You feel like this other person doesn't care about you anymore? That must be difficult for you. Perhaps you depression is helping you think this?
> i have suffered for decades..i would never commit suicide without a long, hard, fight, to the limit, the very edge. but now i think i'm there. having the idea in my mind soothes me now.
Yes, thinking about it is sometimes a way to cope with life...a way to escape. Are you sure that is the only way to escape though? If someone could magically grant you everything you wished for, how would your life be? Is there anything you could do to help you feel better?
> i don't post this so that i'll receive a lot of posts with ppl feeling like they have to say it'll be okay and everything..i don't want to do that to you people.No, of course not. Your feeling are valid and I believe that you are in intense pain right now. I know that my words alone are probably not enough. I only hope to make you feel less alone.
> i don't want to post here anymore because i have nothing positive or fun to offer anymore..i am just a shadow of my former self..and a melancholy one at that. i don't want to bring everyone down.
You don't have to pretend to be all happy here. I like to feel all emotions. :-) It's ok to feel sad. Please continue to post, you made me feel very good when I was down. I know you are a wonderful person. There's no one else like you here.
> sorry for burdening the board with this post. you people on this board have helped me through so much.:) and made my life a little more liveable for a while.No need to apologize. Feel free to babblemail me about anything you want. I'm only starting to get to know you and I know it is selfish of me, but I would really really miss you if you left us.
Take care (((Amy)))
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