Posted by indie on December 24, 2004, at 9:12:00
In reply to Re: Needing some advice. » indie, posted by Fallen4MyT on December 23, 2004, at 23:59:22
> Hi Indie...I am not BP but do know what it is like to have anxiety. Maybe that is what you could be having right now on the job issue and maybe not but ? The lack of sleep is it from the worry and conflict over the job? Could you be cycling? I think it is very quiet in here tonight. I should be wrapping gifts but wore my self out today. Could you do this job while you find your dream job??? I am also curious and if you don't want to share thats ok but what is your dream job??
I think you may be right about cycling...a little too rapid cycling. Of course it's not too bad. At least it's not flinging me from suicidal to totally erratic and compulsive as it can. I'm within the range that I can manage everyday life OK. As for anxiety, I actually think that a new drug my doctor has me on is really helping my anxiety that is almost always present.
I say my dream job. My dream job would actually be as Indiana Jones' assistant :-) or something that would have as much travel and adventure. For the moment however, my doc doesn't want me leaving the country and I feel much safer being near him given all of my recent instability. So, given that I must sit still a bit, I found a job working for a company that builds software for non-profit companies. My job would've been working on-site with with the companies to deploy the software and working a bit on the technology side to customize the product for specific needs. I'm sure it may sound a little mundane, but it is perfect for an environmentalist who loves technology. (My ex calles me a "tree-huggin geek" - a name that I actually find quite endearing) Anyway, neither here nor there. I didn't get it. The boss said that they may have a position coming open in a couple of months and that she felt that I was a very strong candidate and would contact me if it does. YadaYada. I need to avoid getting my hopes up on that.
I suppose I can look for a dream job while I am working...but I do consulting work too so I will end up working 60-70 hours a week. YIKES!! Don't want to completely abandon my friends after they have been so supportive and patient through this depression. Maybe noy sleeping could be a good thing here :-)
OK. Really long answer to a short question. I'll stop babbling now (no pun intended).
Thanks for your note. It makes me feel better knowing that somebody is listening out there.
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