Posted by alexandra_k on December 11, 2004, at 22:40:57
In reply to ((((lostfowards)))), posted by alexandra_k on December 9, 2004, at 16:50:45
Take me for instance. Nobody in their right mind would get too close to me. I push and pull and rage and cling. Terrible, and at the whim of my f'd up emotions. Sure I can see what's going on, but what am I supposed to do - be intimate when I am not in the mood?? Oh no no no. I try not to cling, but when you need to be alone, you need to be alone... But nobody in their right mind would allow themselves to be vulnerable emotionally to me. Because I stomp and trample at the whim of my own.
I don't want to have a relationship anyway.
Well, I do really, but no way oh no way not until these emotions GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME.
So the moral is: there are a lot of screwed up people in the world.
You deserve someone who can make you laugh.
And me, well, I don't deserve anyone at all :-(
Except maybe regular casuals if you get what I mean...