Posted by newbfhcards on December 7, 2004, at 22:27:22
In reply to Re: First Day here.Some of my story, posted by newbfhcards on December 2, 2004, at 23:39:46
Hi,
your messages really mean alot to me. You take time to explain and seem to have a very similar perception as I do.
I am trying to do many of the things you mentioned. I however do not feel at the moment that I want to set up the network of friends and make that arrangement with me.
I am trying to work with my mother and explain, however I expect a conversation about the weather with my mother and your father would take off famously.
I have been feeling in more of a moderate manic mood for the past 6 days or so. I have been out of the house for the same amount of time doing things and taking better care of myself. I feel good but as each day ends and I still feel ok, my worries of a crash grow.
I am starting to feel the medication is working but at the same time I feel like maybe this is just a cycle and i have not been really monitoring my cycle for long so I don't have much to go on.
I am still having alot of trouble sleeping.
It's the first night of hanukah and I did get a great gift so thats good and it gives me something to do, lol.
I was once a very very outgoing person. I am 25, I had started my on business, with an investor at 19 and worked jobs in Finance where I was much younger then most of my peers. I was always known as an "idea" person and was let to do my own thing at work, to the point where I would not show up for two weeks, and I would say, uh i was working at home, when in fact I was in bed imobile, my boss's would say " oh, okay" this happend at three jobs. I was never fired I always just took a better job and left after a year or so. My last job I just left, I gave them a months notice, then did not show up for the last two weeks. I just want to get back to where I was I love work I have so many goals when I feel good and they just seem further and further away. Now, today I feel good and I can see that I can reach them but I just dont know if I can take another down time and los them all again.I hope we can stay in contact like this, I hope I will be able to help you as you have helped me
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