Posted by All Done on August 8, 2004, at 13:47:53
In reply to Re: How do I leave him? » All Done, posted by antigua on August 8, 2004, at 12:07:23
> Oh, I really feel for you. I know how very hard this can be. You're probably right, though, it's you not wanting to leave him. I have three children and I've had to do this bunches of time and it always broke my heart on the first day.(To show you how bad I could make it be for me, my oldest started kindergarten and my baby daughter started daycare ON THE SAME DAY. Whatever possessed me to do that, I'll never know, but I didn't stop crying all day.)
Thank you for understanding, antigua. My T suggested finding some books to read that are written by mothers struggling with the same issues. Or maybe just about mothers' love, in general. Good idea, I believe, but I knew I'd find some supportive moms here as well :).
Gosh, I can't even imagine going through twice (or three times or more) the amount of pain I'm experiencing right now. I hope I'm not too big of a mess tomorrow. I'm going to allow myself tons of extra time in the morning.
> Then it got easier, and if it didn't I usually made different work arrangements so that I could either work from home some days, or I cut back to PT work.
This is what I'm really hoping for in the long run, but at least for the next three months, this is a full-time contract position.
> He's your first (and maybe your only?) so just trust your heart.
He is my first and only child and I usually do trust my heart. It's been working so far :). This time, though, my heart is absolutely breaking so it makes it pretty hard to do what I need to do.
Thanks, antigua. It's nice to hear from you and I appreciate your support :).
Laurie
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