Posted by sdjeff on July 20, 2004, at 22:31:34
Hi all, it's been a while. Where to start...
For the last couple of months, I have been on an emotional roller coaster. It started when I took Geodon. I know this is not the drug board but I think that was the trigger. I only took it for about a week but since then I have done a complete 180. Before I hated to be out and was very reclusive. Since then to now I can't stand being alone. I get big anxiety fits.
Basically right now I can't stand being alone. The few (and I mean few) friends I have are usually busy with other things. Even calling them anymore causes anxiety. Then I get into this phase of calling and calling and wondering why the hell nobody is picking up the phone. Fortunately they are tolerant of this.
This is hard. I feel so completely terrible when I'm by myself. As soon as I can get around someone I feel much better. I used to be a recluse. Now I can't take being alone. I can't find any ways to fill up my time. doing any kind of solitary activity, even bathing, is difficult and that's an understatement.
I know what I need to do. I nee to make friends but that is so difficult. Ok, I've ranted and I'm done.
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