Posted by deirdrehbrt on July 2, 2004, at 16:46:46
This is a positive post.
I'm positive I need change.
I'm positive my family hurts far more than it helps.
I'm positive that my belief that so many people don't like me stems from a family that doesn't want me.
People do like me. I learned that in the past two weeks. I'm really not that bad; what a concept.So, I've found a new place to live. The rent is great and I'll be sharing a house with someone I like. There is an apartment being built in the house that is mine if I want it. That could take some time, but until then, I have a place to sleep, a place to work on my jewelry, and a kitchen with a dishwasher to cook in.
I'm happy. We're happy. This is exactly what we need. Living with the 'rents hasn't worked out at all. Even my neighbors were angry with them because they couldn't get any information from my parents unless they used the name my parents want me to use. We've been back for more than a day, with relatives coming and going picking up and dropping off kids. Not one has really asked me anything about the hospital stay. I get the 'how are you' kind of things, but nothing that suggests any form of sincerety.
Well, another life has to start. It's been waiting in the wings, begging me to pull it out on stage. It's time. I want it, and I need it, and I'm going to grab hold now.
I'm going to be cleaning and packing for a while, not too long though. Then, we're history. We're outa here. We're gone. We've left the building.
The only problem is this: the cat. My cat, Christina lives with me, and doesn't get along well with others. So, she stays, but my daughter is here daily and will take care of her.
Get this! WE CAN HAVE A DOG!!!!!!! There are already three cats and a fantastic german shepherd there. She says I can get a dog of my own!!!!!!!! YAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! (Can you tell she's happy?) Yup! she's happy.
Oh my god, this is great.
I'm still wondering what to do about school, and will be applying to a few. This living situation though is making me think about alternatives. Rather than going out of state to find a school that offers a degree in music therapy, I might consider going to the local university, which isn't bad at all, and get a degree in social work or psychology with a minor in music, and then get a masters in music therapy.
That would keep me near here while my Bipolar and DID are beeing maintained, and hopefully I'll be able to drive again in four year or so to travel to Boston to get my masters.Who knows.... We've got options now. We love this.
So, thanks guys, for all the help and support. We're going to do something with it now.
Love,
Dee.
poster:deirdrehbrt
thread:362658
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