Posted by Ilene on June 16, 2004, at 22:08:39
In reply to Dear Diary June 12, posted by Ilene on June 12, 2004, at 18:51:05
I thought I had skipped a couple of days--I had no idea my last post was on Saturday, and here it is Wednesday.
I saw my pdoc for the what is probably the last time today. She's also been doing psychotherapy w/ me, but we've spent most of our time doing the med thing. I don't feel particularly emotional about not seeing her again, although I appreciate her supportiveness.
I've been feeling *much better* for the last few days. I can only credit Zyprexa. The biggest problem I'm having now is--I can't sleep! When I first took it slept until the afternoon.
Do I feel normal? I don't know. I worry less about things, and when I do worry the feeling is less overwhelming. I can put some things out of my mind. Actually, I have no place to stay after the 23rd and I'm not panicking. The movers are coming on Monday--I do feel like there's too much to do between now and then, but I figure I've moved before and it all worked out in the end.
My original plan was to find someone in the neighborhood who needed a housesitter. I thought I had something lined up, but--get this--the woman's kids are worried about having strangers in the house. They'd rather leave it empty and have a neighbor come in to feed the cat. I'd tell my kids we're getting a housesitter and that's that. Sort of leaves me at loose ends. . . there are always motels.
What still astonishes me is that I went from basketcase to functional in a matter of days. And it's from a drug. Is it too good to be true. . . ?