Posted by smokeymadison on May 7, 2004, at 22:35:05
so i decided that i really had to have a dog a few days ago. i live in an apartment with two cats, which should have been enough. but i had to have a puppy. my boyfriend is going to be working this summer from 7:30 am to 9:30 pm and i was going to be very lonely. it took my about 6 hours to talk my boyfriend into letting me get the puppy. i spent the rest of my money on it. didn't even have enough to pay the electric bill this month--had to borrow some.
the day after i got it, freaked out, got very depressed, felt like i couldn't handle it. the little guy (a beagle) needed constant attention. i felt trapped, like i couldn't breathe. so i wound up fighting w/ my boyfriend for two days to take him back. he didn't want to take him back to the pet store, had become so attached to him. what is wrong with me that i felt nothing but dread over the dog?
so now the dog is gone, and i miss him a lot now. my emotions are so screwed up. we traded the dog for a snake--which doesn't move very much, since we couldn't get my money back. i just don't understand why i felt like i did when i had the dog. it was a mixture of numbness and dread. any thoughts?