Posted by fraulein1456 on May 6, 2004, at 22:15:57
In reply to Welcome » fraulein1456, posted by mair on May 6, 2004, at 21:44:50
Hi Mair,
I'm glad I found this place.
I guess I say that things are better because I'm functioning again. I'm able to get up in the morning and take a shower and look for work. And I have self-confidence again. I do have an interview next week. Yeah! Think good thoughts for me please. My big worry right now is that they will call my last employer and find out I was fired. If only I could get another job and put this shame behind me.
Did I know I was depressed? No. I've dealt with depression for years too and have always been highly functioning in my public life and able to hide it from others. I was taking Prozac at the time and thought I was doing OK. Not great, but functioning. Depression for me is like a deep well with very slippery sloped opening. I slide into the well very slowly and don't realize where I am until it's too late. Then, once I'm down in the pit it becomes impossible to get help. It's too much effort to make that phone call to the Dr. And when I do finally make the phone call and am told I can't get in for a month I hang up in frustration.
So, when I was fired I was on the slide down but didn't know it. I feel the same way you do - that by now I should be able to recognize the slide, but I don't either. It's very tricky that depression!!
Take care,
frau
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