Posted by noa on May 1, 2004, at 20:26:01
In reply to Re: Who are we?, posted by gardenergirl on May 1, 2004, at 9:17:56
*Female. 40's---I like to say "early 40's" but I admit that I'm gettin into "middle" territory really.
*Run of the mill job but I like working, I've always liked working, even when I hate it, cuz I like to be productive within a structured setting
*Love my time off, too.
*Love to read, but often find it hard to sit and focus long enough. Then, suddenly, I will have a big spurt of reading energy and devour a bunch of books in a short time.
*5 year member of Psychobabble, which has been a real lifesaver for me.
*DX=Double depression and hypothyroidism, but realizing more and more that there has always been a lot of anxiety there too. I get somewhat obsessive when I have to sort out detailed stuff or make lots of decisions (example---I bought a zillion quarts of paint to test colors before I settled on paint colors for my apt. and the process drove me crazy)
*Pretty much in remission, at least for the major depression part of the double D. Even the dysthymia part is pretty mild at this point.
*been in therapy for decades. I guess I'm a lifer--who said that earlier this week?
*Love spring weather, and love the ample daylight this time of year. Oh yeah, did I mention I also have S.A.D.?
*Like trees and plants and birds and the breeze.
*Love the ocean. Love to go to the beach just before dawn and watch the sky and the dolphins (if I'm lucky) and the many birds and even before the birds really come out, I love watching the little sand crabs that look like a gifted cartoon animation artist dreamed them up with their cute faces watching me as they scurry across the sand and love watching them busily scurrying or digging, leaving their little mounds of freshly dug sand behind them.
*Love swimming in lakes (clean lakes of course).
*I like to hear the train whistle in the early morning and at night.
*Love to look up at the sky on a clear night and am repeatedly amazed at being greeted by that big bright planet about 45 degrees up in the evening sky. It amazes me and makes me happy.
*unmarried, no kids. Ambivalent about kids. Always used to be positive I wanted and would have kids. Lately not so sure I could hack it, even if it were possible. Who knows, maybe someday I'll adopt. But first I gotta take better care of my own everyday self.
*Not so good at multitasking--distractible, get overwhelmed.
*Kind of a trial and error learner--have difficulty visualizing things, so I have to try it out to know what it will look like (like obsessively trying paint colors, for example). This makes everything very time consuming, of course.
*It's easy for me to lose track of time.
*Originally I was one of those people who always showed up early. Now I really wish I could just be on time.
*Hated to write as a kid--used to have total panic attacks about writing assignments. Then one day as an adult I discovered that I am a decent writer and sometimes I actually like it. At work, people come to me for writing help now. If my high school English teacher could only see that!
*Like crossword puzzles and scrabble
*was addicted to online freecell and solitaire and minesweeper, but am fine since I eradicated them from my computer.
*I also read the New Yorker for the cartoons, but lo and behold, I discovered I like a lot of the articles, too! These are good when I have a lot of time, like when visiting my parents, who are subscribers.
*like offbeat movies
*like to watch This Old HOuse and listen to Click and Clack the Tap It Brothers---Tom and Ray, and love "this American Life", but perhaps my favorite is "Selected Shorts". I love to have a good story read to me by a good story teller.
*My life is full of unfinished stuff--from the still unfinished kitchen to the wires handing from the cieling where light fixtures should be to the birthday card I bought two and a half years ago for someone and forgot to send to the many projects I started and never finished....shall I go on?
*Historically, I've always been pretty timid but once (about 5 years ago) I took a big stand on something important--people thought what I did had been hard to do but it was actually very easy to do because it was so very obviously the right thing to do. Dealing with the aftermath was not so easy, though. But now it's ok and it seems like a long time ago at this point. I guess I haven't been thinking about it as much as time goes by, but it's interesting that it is coming up now as I write this post for this "who we are" thread--I guess it is still part of how I define myself. I guess it is something I am proud of--like I encountered a big test of character and proved myself. Now if I can only manage to feel like all my other character issues can get to where I want them to be!
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