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Is this IT for a social life

Posted by rainyday on March 29, 2004, at 19:03:12

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but I find that this forum is the ONLY place I socialize in. Where else can you find people with similar problems, can empathize with side effects, etc.
I tried to go to an AA meeting today after work. I only drink when I am alone and my spouse is out of town. It is sporadic and I do not look forward to these periods. When he is home I feel neither the need nor the desire to drink. I can handle life, such as it is.

I walked in - it reeked of cigarette smoke.
I asked for a local meeting list, and before I was out the door,
I was crying.

These are not my people.
I looked for a non-smoking meeting in my COUNTY and there are none.

I do not believe that I have to take up smoking to join the club.

I drink to deaden the pain of being alone, and of hurting. The people I saw this afternoon were pretty much dragged in off the street. The only thing missing from the scenery was the bar! I would never have caught myself dead in one of these places, even in my most, finest, alcoholic hours. I am no better than they, but

I do not smoke
I do not flirt

That is what they seem to do at these meetings, no matter WHAT the purpose is.

TThis experiece was the same I saw when I lived hundreds of miles north, when I felt I did not fit in. I am not a fisherman. I am not a heroin addict, I do not belong there either. I have not contemplated suicide because it looks like it takes too much thinking and planning.

Only in THIS PLACE do I find ANYONE to talk to who can relate. Am I anti-social or what....
I feel like I belong anywhere but here.



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