Posted by socialdeviantjeff on March 17, 2004, at 18:58:08
In reply to Re: now I'm BPD. No hospital stay this time *trigger* » socialdeviantjeff, posted by Penny on March 17, 2004, at 17:52:10
> Jeff,
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> You're right - it's absolutely ridiculous that you have to be 'actively' suicidal in order to be admitted to the hospital. For me it was always a question of if I did get there (actively suicidal) would I even tell anyone at that point? I mean, last summer I had a 'plan' and I did tell my pdoc, and I was admitted to the hospital, but would I have really gone through with it? I don't know.
>In Utah it seems that you're relegated to the social trash bin until you are so far-gone that there is no answer but institutionalization. Unless, of course, you have medical insurance. I also have a "plan". I would never carry it through. I could care less about me but when it comes to my daughter, living and trying to be a good parent matters.
> It's sad that folks who need help can't always get it *when* it would still be helpful, rather than being forced to wait until it might be too late.
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> Hang in there, Jeff, as best you can. I think it's awesome that you were able to broach the topic with your pdoc, period. Really. I know from personal experience just how hard that is.
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> (((Jeff)))
>
> P
Thanks so much. Right now I'm trying t get SSDI. I don't want it to be a lifelong thing, but it's the only way to get access to treatment that might help. It was really hard to talk to him. I let it all out, showed him my SI wounds and all. Told him about my hallucenations and delusions. He's good at clinical detachment, he didn't seem in the least bit surprised.
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