Posted by socialdeviantjeff on February 13, 2004, at 21:28:44
That's right. I'm checking out of the working world. I can't handle it. I'm gonna lose my job soon anyway.
Meds don't work. Every new one tried is just another nail in the coffin. Now I have all of this incapacitating pain on top the the psych issues. I cannot afford proper treatment and if the government doesn't want to spend less money and give a guy a leg up, fine! I'll just take it all the way and let THEM pay for my oh-so fabulous lifestyle. screw 'em.
Ive been going back and forth on this for a long time and there just is no other way. The irony is that I'll actually have more money and my daughter will get a benefit, too. The local Child Support sharks can't collect on it either. Now there's a bunch of people to add to my sh**list. Tyrants. You stay current and consistent for years and sacrifice and scrape, ask for just a little leniency for one month and get treated like a damn criminal.Now I suppose I should feel relieved that I'm doing this, and I do, but I'm so angry. I'm angry with myself, with these illnesses, The state, the feds, life, the whole nine. I'm scared of the inevitable battle with the SSA. Rant over.
Your friend in the system,
SDJ
poster:socialdeviantjeff
thread:313034
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