Posted by kara lynne on November 12, 2003, at 20:32:29
In reply to kara lynne, posted by sienna on November 12, 2003, at 18:24:50
You can't fool me---especially after someone stopped you to tell you you were the most beautiful woman he'd ever seen in his life. In fact I almost ammended my post to include that I know beautiful women suffer too.
I can't tell you exactly why I went in the bathroom and cried. I felt myself disappearing in comparison to her; felt despair as she was talking about having kids someday, she's so young and un-broken, with so much life ahead of her. My brother was acting his emotional age and carrying on private conversations with her--leaving me and my parents just sitting there in our deadness. So then I could feel the ages of conflict between us as well. I wanted to have a family of my own to go home to, or something to do that I felt passionate about. But all I had to think about yesterday was adjusting my psych meds.
When I went to the bathroom I prayed to be filled with something other than sadness. It did make me feel better, it was the truest moment of the evening.
poster:kara lynne
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