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Re: babbling

Posted by girl on July 19, 2003, at 22:14:57

In reply to Re: babbling, posted by noa on July 19, 2003, at 18:33:00

I don't think I have Body Dysmorphic Disorder. I don't know my BMI. I just want to be better looking. I miss the confidence I had when I was. Instead of BDD, I have a mother who for as long as I can remember naggedme about my figure. From my preteen years to my twenties, so on. She's thin. It's just supposed to be that her daughter is too, I guess. I think that the years of pummeling all these negative thoughts all these years have finally gotten to me. Once, as we were saying goodbye after lunch, she wasn't even saying goodbbye to my face. She was staring right at my stomach. So I guess you can say that's where the physical low self esteem comes from. And that's also why my pdoc isn't so hot on my decision. When I threatened liposuction on my mother before I made the appointment, she completely changed her tune. It scared her off, but it's too late for me. What my mother says and thinks has a profound effect on me. It's one of the things that I'm adressing now, to be my own person. It sounds crazy but even though I know all these facts about my feelings to my mother's comments, my present non-weight condition, my pdoc's apprehension and my boyfriend's displeasure too, I still want to go through with it. In fact I can't wait for it to be over and see what happens next. I keep thinking that a thinner, physically improved me will open some doors (I'm in the fashion business so you can guess what I'm faced with).


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