Posted by Temmie on July 19, 2003, at 16:17:21
In reply to Help Help Help Help Help Help Help » fallsfall, posted by Temmie on July 19, 2003, at 15:00:52
Thank you everyone. I've called Paul's brother, another friend of ours ... and will be calling Jane's friend, Jackie, just as soon as she's available. I've called Andrea -- the woman we were craching with (where Paul and Jane made their love nest after my leaving). I even called his mother. No answer. I am a crazy woman. Crazy in my grief. Crying, between moments of feeling anesthesized. I just want to talk with him. I just want the satisfaction of saying: (1) I inow; and (2) it's over. (3) or course, is that he should take my camera immediately to friend Karen who'll get it back to me -- but, yes -- whether by spite, or for drug money, I don't expect to see it.
Suxh a f*cking, f*cking jerk. We were talking marriage Wednesday night (not that I didn't know it was take a LOT o work), and talking of him returning to the midwest yesterday. F*ck all you guys who can't keep your pants zipped .... I guess I'm just happy in knowing that I'm loveable, I'm passionate, I know how to do all the right things (including being a faithful companion), and -- yes -- I'm already perusing the personals in the alternative newspaper. Just a little companionship wouldn't hurt. I'd just like someone to DO things with.
Someone to talk to.
Thank you for being that "someone" for now. I've got Seroquel, too, btw, which I plan on using liberally this evening.
XXX, Temmie
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