Posted by Miller on July 12, 2003, at 21:22:57
In reply to to suicide survivors..., posted by yesac on July 12, 2003, at 15:06:50
I tried two times in a very short time period. Obviously both were non-successful.
After the first attempt, I was not at all glad that I had failed. The second attempt came a month later. At first I was glad. Then I had some ery rocky times. I was up and down again.
I too, have read where people who survived find a will to live that they never had previous. My doctor once called it "ego-cide". Basically, when a person attempts suicide the attempt kills off the part of the ego which has been creating the harnful and destructive thoughts. I personally don't believe that ego-cide would be permanant.
I am holding on to the belief that if I can finally be honest with myself and my emotions, I will lose the desire to give up.
Thanks for asking. It is a great question.