Posted by PollyF on July 10, 2003, at 8:16:40
Hi to everyone,
I am new here and just thought I would say hello, I have been reading the posts and find I can relate to so many of them.
I suffer with panic disorder, with secondary depression. I have suffered with both since 1994 after an incident at work ( it was mor than an incident)... had never realised what can happen when you are placed under so much stress, now I have not been able to work - I have tried but always fall into that hole - "what if", whic then sends me on a downward slide.
In 1997 I did attempt to take my own life - I didn't succeed. I still have those thoughts, but somehow I realise that taking my life is just one of the options or choices I have, so I try to look at what other options maybe there for me - usually to sleep for a while and hope when I wake, I feel a bit better.
I have good days and bad days, I am lonely - I also get to the point that my thinking is not rational, as in "my family doesn't care what happens to me" - this is my sisters - I don't have children and I can't.
Anyway, I won't ramble in my first post, just thought I would give you all some background.
Bye from me in Australia
poster:PollyF
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