Posted by whiterabbit on June 25, 2003, at 10:49:12
In reply to No one knows what it's like..., posted by a very little sphinx on June 25, 2003, at 9:50:11
So far I've avoided comment, not because you aren't worth it but because it's painful for me -
my own attempt to end my life was not so very long ago. At the time I woke up in ICU bitterly disappointed to still be alive, I didn't want to go home to my life and I didn't want to be me. I didn't want to BE at all.Since then I've come a very long way. My personal circumstances are unpleasant (as a result of my illness) but my thinking is clear, thanks to medication and therapy. This is all I can offer you and I hope you accept it.
I know you, I know where you are and it's a dark and terrible place. You are in crisis and need immediate medical attention. You have to get to a hospital, you're suffering from a disorder as lethal as a bullet wound. The longer you put off help the worse it will get...it won't go away on its own.
I don't know where you live...where I am, several hospitals in the area have what they call a "behavioral health" clinic - not in the hospital itself but on hospital grounds like the doctors' buildings, or private medical offices. These clinics are set up to help walk-in patients who need immediate intervention - they can and will help you. Unless you live in some third-world country I can't imagine there's not a similar type of facility you can reach. Please get help.
I'm convinced now that suicide is wrong in both a moral and spiritual sense. It's not the way out...
I'm no cosmic authority, but my personal belief is that you reap in the next life what you sow in this life...eventually you answer to everything you do. (My husband is in a s***load of trouble, haha.) At the very least, in the next life you'll pick up right where you left off in your spiritual journey. So you haven't escaped anything after all.Please get help. If I can get better I know that you can. It's obvious that you have an intelligent and powerful mind, although right now your mind is using itself for evil rather than good, same as mine did...
I can promise you, that same mind torturing you now can not only heal with proper treatment, your intellect can be turned into a force to be reckoned with, capable of the most amazing things.
But first you must give up the useless battle you're fighting and say to yourself with meaning:
"I need help. I'm going to get help right now."
Because help IS out there, but first you must reach out your hand.-Gracie, WHO fan
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