Posted by bookgurl99 on June 9, 2003, at 4:56:36
*sigh* My gf is out of a job as of the end of the month. This was a high responsibility, high-paying job that put her through a lot of stress but boosted her self-esteem.
Now, she's going through really low self-esteem. She's being kind of mood swingy and angry, almost wallowing in it.
I see this as a positive change, as the people were very negative to work with.
BUT, suddenly she's all over the map -- talking about trying to get a job in this state, that state. I've agreed to move if possible, but I wish that I had a degree and higher-paying career so I could be an anchor for her right now.
Plus, she's looking to join the military. The position would utilize her skills excellently, but she would have to hide being gay. We may not even be able to live together. For some reason, her therapist supported her in going after this job -- I think heterosexuals just don't have a clue how hard it can be to go through something like this.
To top it all off, she's acting withdrawn and not really discussing her feelings with me. I really love her, so it's hard for me to feel disconnected at a hard time like this.
We're finding relief by writing notes to each other on all this.
- -- just wanted to vent --