Posted by Dinah on April 26, 2003, at 11:37:03
In reply to Re: Well... (unpleasantly graphic and overdisclosing) » Dinah, posted by leeran on April 26, 2003, at 2:06:55
Thanks for thinking of me, Lee. I suspect there are no easy fixes for this problem. :( It's just too pervasive and longstanding. I looked it up on the internet, and was quite discouraged.
My therapist asked me yesterday if I wanted to learn to enjoy sex, as opposed to just merely not hating it. And my knee-jerk reaction was. NO!!! YEACH!!!! BLECH!!!! IT IS JUST TOO AWFUL TO CONTEMPLATE CHOOSING TO DO THAT!!! PEOPLE (well, husband) WOULD BE TOUCHING ME EVEN MORE OFTEN!!! LEAVE ME THE %#*@ ALONE!!!
I have this vague idea that I'm not quite making the cognitive leap that if I enjoyed it, my feelings about it would be different. Even the concept is too much for me to tolerate. Maybe over time the very idea will seep in and I'll be able to entertain it.
P.S. I'm not particularly a prude. It's not like throw-up. I don't mind watching sex or kissing in movies. I even enjoy it. I'm fine with auto-eroticism. Sex is great as long as it doesn't involve PEOPLE TOUCHING ME!!!
P.P.S. I'm glad that vomit conversation helped you. It helped me as well. And thanks for the heads up about that opening scene. I wish they would give warnings for that.
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