Posted by Tabitha on April 24, 2003, at 11:08:59
In reply to Does he know you're a slob yet? :D » Tabitha, posted by Kar on April 24, 2003, at 10:20:55
I refused to let him in my house until I had cleaned. I told him it was the day before the maid came, but then I admitted I was kidding, I don't really have a maid. I cleaned the entire place in a 6-hour whirlwind of activity and had him over for dinner. My therp suggested part of my good mood is just that now I have a clean house. It's amazing. There are no piles of stuff anywhere. There are no dustbunnies except under the bed where they belong. There is food in the fridge. Kind of annoyed that I couldn't just do this for MYSELF, but what the heck, I'll take it anyway.
I'm not sure I can dish. Here I've been going on about how great it is to be single and self-sufficient and just wanting a casual summer sex fling with an inappropriate young man (or two or three). I wasn't looking for anything like this. The trippy thing is, I don't have to hold back my infatuation and hide it and play the usual little games, because he's feeling the same thing, and admitting it, in an honest way, including the fears. I've always had it be unequal, one person smitten, the other ambivalent.
I'm discovering the main turn-on for me is his willingness to open up and show emotional vulnerability. Seriously. It's like a whole new dimension.