Posted by jane d on April 19, 2003, at 22:43:36
In reply to Here it is, posted by RoxyG on April 19, 2003, at 21:59:04
Hi Roxy and Welcome. This is a good bunch of people. When I first found this site I think I spent several days reading it non stop amazed to find other people who had felt the same things I had. I still am amazed at times. And I only found this site after I was partly recovered. I still wonder what it would have been like if this site had existed when I was much worse. Your description reminds me so much of the way I felt then when there didn't seem to be room for any feelings or thoughts but how much it hurt. And, of course, I was certain that it would never end. Only for me you understand. I knew that other people had felt this way and recovered and that other people had a place in the world even if they didn't recognize it but I was absolutely completely sure that I did not. And years later I learned that many of the other posters had that same certainty about themselves. I would like you to know that the feelings you have now do end even if that seems hard to believe. You can actually reach a point where those horrible feelings are so far behind you that they almost seem unreal. For me drugs and time were the magic formula. I'm not sure exactly what else to write to you. I'm not that good with words to begin with and at the time I felt like you did I was even worse. It felt like I couldn't even think a complete thought. You said you found this site looking for medication information. Are you currently taking any? They really can be a miracle. Again, welcome, and keep posting.