Posted by sienna on March 22, 2003, at 1:13:24
Ok, i have a couple questions about delusions. I dont really know what they are. Well, I knwo what they are supposed to be, but im having a hard time believeing im delusional.
I was at the doctors today and was looking at this plant sitting on the floor across the room. The doctor was looking at his computer monitor and the social worker was sitting down. I stared at the plant and it fell over. I think i made it fall over. So I apologized for knocking over the plant. They said I didnt do it. He said it must be suductive to think that i did. But its not seductive to think that for me i dont htink. Its just that that happens to me all the time and i think i am doing it. He said that my medicine will make it happen less often and i dont understnad how that will work if its not in my head. But i take the medicine and its still happeining.
He asked me if part of me knew that i couldnt relaly do that. I said YES but i cant explain it another way. I mean If Isaac Newton is right about the laws of motion then I knocked over the plant. becuase no other force was acting on it at the time.
Also this is separate but I think people can read my mind. WHy? Because they do it all the time. My old therapist knewt hat my cat was calico without me telling him. A stranger that i see in class guessed that i was on zoloft. How do these people do that without reading my mind?
I know I see things no one sees and hear and feel things no one does. fine those are hallucinations i guess. But its relaly hard to believe that these things are delusions.
Does anybuddy else have this problem?
Sienna
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