Posted by sienna on March 20, 2003, at 14:38:49
In reply to Re: daizy, posted by syringachalet on March 20, 2003, at 12:32:30
thanks so much for writng. i have orientation for the IOP today. i will go and ill make sure i go everyday. today i woke up 2 hours late somehow and missed my first class at school but made my second somehow. i increased my meds so thats probably why.
i am holding it together somewhat but the war increase my anxiety and fears a lot. Im sorry you have PTSD i dont know if thats what i have but my social worker says so. I am schizoaffective. BUt im not hearing voices so much as im am paranoid and scared. I am depressed some, but not like i was before. Mostly i am wound up and nervous.
I have been to the doctor where they give a phsycical exam and had it not scare me to bad, but sometimes i get really scared. Something bad happened a while back and so now i am scared of the doctors.
Also part of me thinks things are really dangerous and scary righ tnow and i have to *make* myself take my meds but i am scared that they are make me less aware and more sedated and unable to protect myself. So maybe ill learn more about htat at the IOP.
Its nice to meet you, i have seen you post a lot before and you are sweet.
I will write back and let everyone know what happens at the IOP orienattion.
thanks again for writing.