Posted by kid a on January 28, 2003, at 0:35:50
In reply to power and love and destruction » kid a, posted by Alii on January 27, 2003, at 14:54:08
> Thank you dear one for such lovely words.
no thanks necissary at all. none at all, but it is kept in my heart like a gift.
> I had forgotten how much heartache really does hurt and how it can make the darkest of my depressions seem downright sunny and like a fucking cake walk.
It's funny how we can let one person in our lives, well how we can let one special person into our lives, to whom we share our darkest secrets, how that person can take so much of ourselves away when their own weakness or personal need outweighs their ability to continue on within the confines of the realm that our own hearts have defined... How much we have built ourselve around just their mere presence... How much of ourselves we build into their existace.
> The tears are lessening. The pain is constant. But for now I'm still planning on seeing my birthday roll around this year.
oh and they do, but they are no less important now that they fall... and as have I felt them too... so many of us will...
> P.S. I am trying to come through this without medical intervention so reminders are essential to help me remember that pills won't fix this. Time might....
Time, yes, time... I've learned its a personal clock... how long... who can say... I've learned that there is no real clock, yet the one we keep each to ourselves... I've learned that grieving the loss of a friend we all knew and loved.
and love, yes. all my love to you.
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