Posted by Miller on January 3, 2003, at 22:14:52
In reply to Re: Miller... » Miller, posted by Dinah on January 3, 2003, at 21:07:04
Thanks Dinah,
I am feeling better than I was. I think I am putting a lot of hope into the three weeks of being off of work and being able to concentrated on dealing with my issues with no distractions. I have been working since I was 12 so this will be the only break (other than scheduled vacations) that I can recall to devote to myself. I want to feel beter. Even when I am in a very bad state (suicidal) I want a sign that I can be happy. The signs just never show up in a timely manner.
Now, back to you. I assume you are referring to his commitment to protect you if he leaves, correct? How, exactly, do you know he forgot? Was the commitment something he wouldn't do for you if he hadn't promised?
I know it sounds rediculous, but when you said you feel relieved because you asked him questions you were anxious about, how did you do it? Did you have to work it into the conversation or did you just "jump in" and ask him? It's so much easier if my shrink asks me questions, than if I have to "create" my own session.
Until a couple of sessions ago, I wasn't even telling him about my daily traumas. I ended up faxing him a letter filling him in on some of my misdirected decisions.
Why is it that I feel closer to my shrink when I am NOT in his office? When I am sitting in front of him, I can't let it out.
OK, back to you. (I know, I get side-tracked a lot.) How long have you been seeing this therapist? Do you tell him EVERYTHING? (Except, of course that he has let you down and you are crushed over it.) How long did it take you to feel comfortable with him? Do you think it is now harder for you to talk to him since he has hurt you and it isn't resolved yet? Last question: In your heart, do you know you will resolve this issue with him; are you jst waiting for the nerve or "perfect" opportunity?
Well, I guess I have pumped you for enough information for one night, huh? I'll stop hassling you.
Dinah, you are a good person. Thanks for being here.
-Miller
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