Posted by krysti on November 9, 2002, at 11:49:27
In reply to Re: Mr Cushing » Krysti, posted by Mr Cushing on November 8, 2002, at 18:22:13
Hey there,
Seinfeld show was good : ) Better than I expected actually. It was pretty neat to get to see him live and we had really good seats. Some people were taking pics, I wish I had brought my camera! Oh well.
Okay, you're going to laugh at this one - my job is computer support! That is what I do for a living is help other computer-challenged people among other things : ) Besides, most of the e-mails I sent you, I just replied to you so it's not like I could have typed your address wrong - weird. My e-mail address is KrystiT71@aol.com. Try to send me a message again and I will try to reply to you again.
About the Depakote, I totally agree. When I first went on it I was totally manic and then when I came down, I was still on the same dose which is weird. I was definitely taking too high of a dose at that point in my opinion. I'd still like to know though why they would choose to go with that one first when it's such a pain with the blood tests and all. I could see maybe for people who are in a total manic state, if that one works best to bring you down, but otherwise? Actually, come to think of it, the reason why my first pdoc put me on that also was because I had started drinking pretty much daily - when I was up, I was trying to come down, when I was down - I was trying to come up. And above all else, I was drinking to try to shut off my mind! Depakote is supposed to help take away a craving for alcohol which it did for me when I first started taking it. I guess they also prescribe it sometimes for alcoholics when they're drying them out. I think if you start feeling blah, like you have no personality at all, you know you're taking too much. At least that's how it was for me. Imagine feeling blah after so much anxiety for so long, at first it was a relief, but it got old real quick. I definitely don't want to go through life with no personality!
I totally understand what you mean about, what is "normal"??? When I feel it again, I'll have to let you know how I feel. I think I'm getting too up again on the Lexapro - definitely not manic, but starting to think too much again. And I can tell, I'm starting to fight sleep again. Do you ever feel like that? Like you know you need to go to bed, but you don't want to. I did it last night and was up till 3:00 am. It's like I'm tired, but I'm not. I want to go to sleep, but I don't. I'm starting to take the Ambien every night again, not a good sign. I think I'm going to up the Gabitril some and see if that helps. Scared I'm going to get too low again though so I still haven't done it yet. I've got to though. Trial and error is what it's all about until that right combo is found. Frustrating, huh?
I have had days where I've felt normal though, when you feel it, you'll know. I just still need to find the right combo that keeps me there.
I'm thinking maybe we should start posting again on the med board, what do you think? Even though we're talking about other things, I think the meds will probably always be a part of the conversation.
How are you feeling today?
Krysti
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