Posted by Tabßitha on September 29, 2002, at 2:47:23
In reply to Re: Oh Ted :), posted by Dinah on September 29, 2002, at 2:08:43
I'm sooooo tired of this feeling of dissatisfaction and deprivation. I'm either a gaping pit of unfulfilled needs, or else the depression comes in and damps down my awareness to the point where I feel slightly numb and robotically functioning. Seems like all people around me are the same, gaping pits or functioning zombies. Is this adulthood?
This can't be the life I want. Am I responsible? If not me who then? Feels like I've given up on improving things, like I've tried everything and it's not worked, or has made little difference. I don't know if I can stand another week, like so many other weeks lately whizzing past. Zooom! There goes another one.
Seems like I'm in a box, and if I could just break out of it everything could be different in an instant. Delusional I know. If I could just shed this weight of misery, of habits and self. It's constant suffering, yet nothing's really wrong. I have no major problems, just this misery.
poster:Tabßitha
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