Posted by tina on August 23, 2002, at 8:31:42
In reply to Re: What should I expect from therapy? » tina, posted by shar on August 22, 2002, at 19:15:18
Ok, first, I'm not into sculpture and I really don't know what psychodrama is......:)
Second, I started therapy when I was 20. I'm now 33 (as of yesterday) and I don't feel like I've made any progress whatsoever. I've had 6 different therapists now....psychiatrists, psychologists and social workers. At the beginning, I thought this one was finally going to help because she actually listened to me and validated my feelings which is something none of the others ever did. But, now, six months later, I haven't 'grown' or changed. I can't cope better, I still feel completely trapped and hopeless and yes Shar, I have suicidal ideation on a daily basis. I know deep down that I'm way too chicken to actually kill myself but MAN!! do I wish I could. I am totally convinced that it is the one and only answer to all my problems but knowing that I'll never have the courage to do it just leaves me hopeless and stuck all the time.
I pray for some kind of accident to 'take me out' since I can't do it myself.
I don't remember what fun feels like. I don't know if I ever did.
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