Posted by Gabbi on July 25, 2002, at 18:46:31
In reply to re: Princess Gabbi » Bobby, posted by Bobby on July 24, 2002, at 21:54:44
You mean you will see me in family induced hell?
Well I guess many of us could see each other there.I didn't get to pick up the C.D. yesterday. Because of the hell.
And regarding your letter to me....
I don't think that I've been thrown any particular curveballs but the depression turns everything into one.Hmm. Interesting regarding the everyone having some degree of hope... I'd be tempted to say if you feel that way then you've never been clinically depressed. But how would I really know It would be like me knowng how an apple tastes to you.
And I still don't know whether its hope or fear of a painful death that keeps me alive. Mostly I think its just the effect it would on my family that bothers me.
As for not having a home, I think thats a choice I've made though one I complain about. I could acknowledge my situation and live in a seedy hotel, or apply for depressingly generic subsidized housing.
This way, I can still be in denial.
And spend the money I do have on exotic fruit, good books and not have to buy crates of macaroni and other generic dried canned food with Blue and Yellow labels. (at least thats how they are here.) Not that I'm saying that doing that is a bad thing,it would really be sensible. Its just different priorities.Oh I'm still not making sense forgive me
I have to stop right here. I think I might be able to sleep right now!, and I can't miss the opportunity.Princess Gabbi
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