Posted by trouble on March 20, 2002, at 20:36:19
In reply to CIA complex? tried to hang myself, my neck hurts , posted by LiLi80 on March 20, 2002, at 14:06:20
Hey Lilli, I know you're not looking for answers, you're too smart for that, but you are so doggone charming and bratlike that you've got the maternal engine busting my gut.
> ok now i think i may have made my whole life up. I have posted about my old roomates and how they keep hurting me.
well is it in my head. Am i the equivalent to the CIA is after me? Am i making up that my roomates are purposely doing this to me? A mutual friend of ours tells me that i am only doing this for attention and its partly my fault for talking about my depression so much.>> after that conversation i tried hanging
myself with a cable wire.Right here, help me make the connection in the post, what was it in there that caused the suicide attempt?
*Did you feel misunderstood by the bitch? Bitches misunderstand hon, it's their stock in trade, anger is a reasonable response to being misunderstood, anger at them, not yourself.
*Did you feel guilty for seeking attention? Please drop this one into the acid vat of your mind immediately and never give it another thought. Seek attention, Lilli, my god, get all the attention you can, (w/out ending up in prison of course)
*Was the attempt a result of an accumulation of all the family, insurance, b/f, therapy problems? What's happening here is skewed thinking, none of this shit is going to matter a year from now, but when we're feeling so overwhelmed by our current problems that the only answer seems to be to off yourself it's crucial to get on the phone or PBchat and talk to someone, you need another perspective to help you see the light.One last thing, oh dear, this is some of that theoretical bullshit I could get myself pimp-slapped for spewing around here, but no one's forcing anyone to read my psychotic reactions and carburator dung, or whatever it's presently characterized as.
The female-to-female dynamic is riddled w/ unacknowledged landmines up the ASS and one that strikes me is perhaps these girls are penalizing you for your refusal to merge w/ them. Similarity is a huge and IMO hugely fucked up value among females, and they can get viperish in their demands for it. A fun way to assess if you are being consumed by a spider-woman is to reply to her character critiques w/ "This sounds like one of the many differences between you and me," and check the reaction. Let that reaction inform your decision regarding the amount of power yu want to give her. It's up to you. So, how much power are you willing to give this person, Lilli, who NEEDS you to be LIKE HER AS IF SHE WAS THE STANDARD OF NORMALITY? Is she? You want to be like these people? Keep differentiating, girl, militant autonomy is cool and sexy, why, the very definition of sexy IS rebellion, test the theory, dear, see if you can name one sexy person who isn't rebellious, and while yer at it tell the b/f to go fuck himself there are plenty fine men around who find non-merging women the hottest of the hot. Go get 'em, child.
Aunt Bea
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