Posted by ambrosialdelight on March 3, 2002, at 12:58:20
In reply to Re: riding the turnip truck...trouble, posted by sar on March 2, 2002, at 15:38:50
Two things sar-
1) I don't think you are a prostitute, otherwise that definition would include almost all our "give and take" interactions in one way or another, some of us just ask for more whatever form the payment takes, and we pay for it too in many ways. It probably just feels odd that money is being exchanged directly. My opinion (and I am no expert so anyone can disagree) is that becomes prostitution when you are physically repulsed but do it anyway. I mean really physically repulsed, not just thinking "This is wrong". So far I don't see a reason to be repulsed- but I guess that's a personal matter.
2) In the spirit of "if you have to eat a toad, choose a juicy one", I'll say that you need to get more money, maybe you should ask for the equivalent of one or two month's rent each time. and then raise your "fee" randomly at whim by random amounts - especially amounts that don't make sense like $39.94 or a penny. Take payment in advance, not after the act. Actually maybe you should take payment before you even go over. How about investing in a credit card billing system (you may need this for what I suggest later in this posting). And think about the many ways you could use credit card recipts! He thinks he can control you with money (a lot of wealthy guys I've dated and dumped tried this in a subtle way). Why not take the carrot from him and spank him with it. This may also cool down his ardor and he may employ the "free" services of his wife. He could never pay you enough for your services, but if you're in a position where you have to do it, why not make it really worth your while? Take the upper hand, own your decisions and feel no guilt, you are a rational being. Maybe you could teach others to help their loved ones this way instead of doing it yourself, you still get paid and everyone comes out happy (remember credit card billing?), plus you'd be making a huge positive contribution to society as well. I am not joking, many women (and probably gay men) would be eager to learn such stuff. I know I'd pay for a lesson, just to improve my skills, and I don't even have someone to use them on, can you imagine how many people need to spice up their marriages, your Mr. Massage being one of them? Oh I wish I were you, I would have so much fun with Mr. Massage, I'd play with his mind like Play-do, he would be twisted around three ways south of Sunday before I was done.
Oh one more thing- go to the library and check out some psychology books, some books on power games and learn to play chess.