Posted by Roo on February 28, 2002, at 9:06:02
In reply to Re: Self Acceptance » Roo, posted by sar on February 27, 2002, at 17:37:10
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> one of my lifelong problems has been with
ruminating thoughts...my heart used to pound
even going to the cashier to pay for a gatorade,
and if he tried to *talk* to me, i'd mentally
analyze the conversation for a good 20 minutes
after leaving the store or even occasionally
for days just *thinking* about it over and over...
That sounds familiar to me--especially how I was before
discovering antidepressants. If the cashier was mean to
me it could ruin my whole day and make me feel like a shitty
person.
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> this may sound corny, but doing community
service and being in the mental hospital helped
my self-esteem and self-acceptance because i
realized that i work exceptionally well with
children and the mentally ill (especially
schizophrenics, for some reason)...they
were all really drawn to me, loved me, and
i could hardly comprehend it! why me, this
sick alkie? but obviously they saw something...
helping people can help bring self-acceptance
because they are accepting and appreciating you,
and it infiltrates ya somehow...Yeah, I can see how that would help a lot. I crave
something like that...but I'm not sure how my talents
could be shared with the community. That's something to
think about...and that I have been thinking about.>
> are you on any meds that help with ruminating
houghts/depression/anxiety?I take prozac and lamictal. I used to take neurotin
when it was really bad, but I dumped the neurotin because
it's really not so bad anymore and I didn't like being
on so many different drugs. I'm going to try and SLOWLY reduce
the prozac so I can get my sex life back and I'm seriously
hoping that what I'm learning in therapy and the skills I'm
building through therapy and meditation will be enough to
support and sustain me.Ps. Sar, it's good to have you back! I always love
your posts. You really need to write a book.
poster:Roo
thread:18982
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