Posted by alley on January 25, 2002, at 21:25:39
well its over a year since my boyfriend and i have been going out..im seventeen and hes twentyone..lately....well more then lately..i guess you can say since hes been back from college..which is since this past may(he decided to finish he last year of college local this year, i dont feel to guilty for taht, but thats a TOTALLY different story) anyway..weve been having a lot of problems...and i know its because hes having a hard time dealing with my mental illness(s) or whatever the fact may be...he is being really not cooperative and it doesnt help that im cycling up a storm..
the funny thing is...hes majoring in psych. i dont see why he cant just cope with me and understand what im dealing with...our relationship is going deeper and deeper into a hole day by day and the sorrys dont mean anything anymore.
he tells me i wouldnt be able to survive without him but i think its the opposite and at times i just want to take off and leave and but ive gotten so far that its not fair that i have to feel so stuck in this and unstable at the same time...
the sickest part is..we tried to be apart for as much as we could last week...i think it was one of my worst depressive episodes i have ever had in my life...i thought it was just because of the new dosages of medicines but even my boyfriend said it was because we were apart...
basically i really need people to tell me if theyve ever been in a situation like this or can give me some type of suggestions....im sorry this post was soo long i just needed to vent too sorry by all means....post anything, email me...anything please though tell me if its these stupid medications or just the relationship in general thats killing me inside....
poster:alley
thread:17205
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