Posted by ELA on January 9, 2002, at 11:27:06
I am returning to university after the Christmas break on Sunday and to say that I am really worried about it. I was at uni when I was taken seriously ill and that is what lead to my depression, or had a hand in bringing out something that was probably underlying anyway. I'm scared that something else might happen to me. Also, I have been back at the family home for the last 8 weeks getting over everything and now I will effectively be back on my own again.
GP says that I need counselling to get over things - my illness was life threatening and I have found it difficult to cope with. Everyone says that I need to talk about whatever is bothering me but the thing is that I'm not sure what it is and that's why I feel like a complete idiot at the moment. There's so much stuff going through my mind lately and I wouldn't know where to start and they seem quite trivial in the big scheme of things so I'm concerned about wasting someone's time if I did go and talk to a "professional".
I am trying very hard to get on with things but it seems to be getting more and more difficult to put a brave face on and ignore it all. But how can I sort it out when I don't know what's really wrong? I feel more stupid than depressed right now!
poster:ELA
thread:16543
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